'We are SPARKS for Jesus'

This year I have been working at Awana. And I must say I enjoy the heck out of it. I am one of the several awesome Sparks leaders. There are Cubbies who are preschoolers. T&T who are third through sixth grade. Then there are the Sparkies who are the Kindergarden- 2nd graders. I thought signing up to work at Awana was something I 'should' do just because I have worked so much with kids. I thought I would also enjoy it but I didn't realize how much!
It happens very often that I don't want to get out and go to awana, if I've had a sad day or I'm just not feeling that good. (I have arthritis so evening time and depending on the time of year is a sore time.) But I go anyway. I go because my 'book time kids' for that month are depending on me. I go because my fellow leaders are depending on me. I go because the 'Green Team' needs their leader who keeps them organized and understanding. I go mostly though because it makes me very,very happy.

These things bring me much happiness at Awana:

Children who smile at me when I come in the doors.
Fellow leaders who somehow can tell when I'm feeling down and say just the right things to cheer me up.
Jr.High boy helpers who just have fun in their own crazy jr.high ways but also somehow keep the kids total respect.
Watching Sparks overtime learning the books of the Bible songs.
Children who are so proud of themselves when they learn another verse.
Kids learning about God's love.
Kids who have great questions about God; who are really wanting to know all they can about Him.
Special Nights of fun.
Supporting the green team in a nice way. And that competitive atmosphere of fun.
Being reminded,personally, of all those stories in the Bible's that you dont learn the same when you're an adult than you do as a young kid.
Finally after many attempts PERSONALLY learning the books of the Bible order from those songs that are for the kids.

These things are just the start of the list that could really go on and on. I just love it. Sometimes my favorite is when Im not having a great day and it's wednesday and I forgot it. Then it's 4:00 and I remember about Awana and it just makes me happy. My days of being an Awana worker are not even close to being over. I'll do it for as long as I can. It's a big commitment: every single wednesday night during the School year. But for me that's completely worth it.

"We are SPARKS for Jesus, Sparks to light the world. We will SHINE for Jesus as we tell each boy and girl! We will hide God's word in our hearts. We will serve him right from the start. From his love we never can part because we are Sparks! Sparks! Sparks! Sparks! Sparks! to light the world!" Mmmm... I just soak it in.

Life happens fast

So It seems like Yesterday that I graduated from highschool. But the truth is it has been 9 months and soo much has happened since then. I've gotten several life experiences, some were completely pleasant while some were tragic. But Ive found that even the tragic one's you can learn from and become a better person because of them. I am now 19 years old,...and I do still live at home. I do own a beautiful car that I am sadly hanging on to by a thread. But I love having it.


My little sister, MaryBeth, is graduating in just 3 months and I cannot believe it. She will be an adult. I feel like this kind of marks our entire families childhood ending in a way. We're all adults. We're all going somewhere. It makes me so happy but it makes me so sad too. It also makes me realize that I the older sister, due to circumstances that just did not work out for me, will be home alone in this house with my parents for atleast a year. I dont mean to sound like I hate the idea, but it is an idea im going to have to get use to. I'm the older sister. I never imagined being the 'one' who got left behind at home when we were growing up. This is something that is crazy to me.


On the same breath...I am so proud of my MB. She has overcome so much adversity in the past few years and yet is still one of the smartest, beautiful, couragious and (most importantly) Godly women I know. My best friend. I am ecstatic of the thought of her going to college and having a freaking amazing time. She'll do amazingly. I will miss her.


Anyway---This blog is so scatterbrained and Im sorry for that, haha. Im sure ill get better as I go on but in the mean time I'll wrap this up by a quote from one of my favorite movies.

"We'll all grow up someday, Meg. We might as well know what we want." ....Soo true... <3

Pop

Pop. A very powerful drug that I beleive I have had quite an addiction to at times. I successfully quit it though back in november for health and weight loss reasons. I definitely think it helped me lose 7 pounds total in november before thanskgiving! WOOT! Then I beleive that I relapsed about Christmas time. I'm quite bummed about it but every day I get myself a glass or can of pop and then feel physically and mentally awful. So I vow starting tomorrow (well today..since it is currently 12:40 a.m. :D) to not drink any and all pop. This includes diet and caffeine free. I think it will make me happier about myself, happier in general, and healthier in general. This vow is to never drink one sip of pop until I reach my goal weight. This is a vow I intend to keep. No more "relapsing." I can do it. I will not try to give up pop, I will give up pop....I found a quote the other day that is extremely motivational and it is from a movie I have never seen, but many people would say I am crazy for never having seen it. The movie is star wars and here is the quote. : "Do or do not, there is no try." Remember people when it comes to things in life that are hard, make a decision: do or do not. :)

Disability or Blessing?

I met a man (for the second time) yesterday who ended up telling me about a disability he had. It's a weird one. You see,....he can not taste sugars/sweets. He said that about five years ago there was an accident at the dentist's where the dentist actually messed up his nerve (something like that.) He said that it felt like he hit a nerve and his tongue felt like it was burning up. He figured it would heal fine and wouldn't be a big deal. But one day a while later he was making his favorite desert and was tasting it whilst in the process( as all great chefs do of course) and thought to himself that he just would have to start over that it just did not taste right. His wife tasted it and said it tasted just fine/normal. That is when he started to realise that he could not taste any sweets. His "sweet" taste buds must not work any more.

While most people would feel EXTREMELY sad and sorry for this man, I was left with a feeling of great jelousy. I thought that if I had this disability that it would be more of a blessing than a curse. I wondered how much easier weight loss might be if I just simply could not taste sweets. My greatest enemy in the world is chocolate(JK) and if I couldn't taste chocolate.....OH, how easier life would be. I Wonder....If I just pretend that I can't taste all the sweets would that be as effective? I just might try it.
Too bad I actually CAN. Bummer. :P :P

Blogging!

I wonder how many people will actually read this Blog. Everyone i know in the world (it seems) has one of these blog dealios and I really wanted to do one. Peer pressure? Perhaps. But it does sound like fun.

For those of you who don't know, my name is Megan and I am 18 years old. I've been overweight half my life. My weightloss journey started in May of 2009 and I have lost about 30 pounds.
This blog will be about the struggles and joys I go through losing weight. I WILL lose the rest of the weight. Please stay tuned. :)